My understanding of happiness is shifting. Happiness used to be based on an experience. I would do something enjoyable, and that would make me happy. I’m learning that happiness is just a state of mind independent of what I’m experiencing externally. If I’m aware of my sensations in the present moment, I’m happy. Instead of looking for excitement or an adrenaline rush, I’m satisfied finding peace and quiet.
Noise and flashy lights tend to distract me from my sensations. While this used to be a positive, I’m realizing now that it’s just an illusion. Being present with my sensations is real, open, safe, and honest. While this meditative space isn’t flashy, it no longer needs to be. The most important journey for me to walk is within so finding ways to make it easier to listen is helpful. Time to go meditate.