What do I want to do with my life? What is my passion? How can I make a difference? How do I meet my potential? I have asked myself these types of questions over and over again throughout my life. With Vipassana, now I’m wonder if I had the questions all wrong. Growing up as a white male in America in a two income household I felt like there was no limit to the options I had in my life. I was given a great opportunity and I didn’t want to screw it up.
Now it seems like life is choosing the path for me while I carry a compass that simply tells me which way is straight. I’m realizing how almost everything is outside of my control. I’m finding that the best laid plans always seem to get side tracked. I know that spending time questioning past choices is simply a waste of energy. I don’t know how it all works, but if feels like I’m just along for the ride.
The interesting thing about Vipassana is its ability to improve this journey. I have no idea how it works, but it seems that that when I continue investing in my practice, I can feel vibration becoming stronger and more pure. I can feel my mood lightening, may gaze softening, and my compassion growing. As my heart becomes stronger, it also becomes more open, and as it opens I become happier. It seems like the universe is infinitely complex making the task of figuring it out impossible, but with Vipassana, I feel like I’m carrying around a magic flashlight that is helping to shine the way. Time to meditate.
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This is so true Ryan. When I was in my 20’s I thought the world was my oyster too. Now in my mid 50’s, pretty much nothing has been as I imagined or intended. In my time I’ve abandoned both a marriage and a career; not quite what my middle class parents had in mind either. Having put me through college they expected either the glittering career and/or the rich husband and kids. Alhough I have none of these, I’m happier now than I have been for years as I no longer equate fullfilling my potential with having money and possessions. Since learning to mediate I have coped much better with whatever life has thrown at me. I’ve given up wondering what comes next because whatever it is it will probably turn out to be something I hadn’t thought of.