I basically no longer have a night life. When I first committed to meditating, it was a major struggle to force myself to stay at home rather than going out drinking with my friends. I just loved the excitement and adrenaline rush of getting a little crazy, and not doing so seemed like an empty and boring Friday night. Last week I found myself out in town at night for the first time in a while and everything felt a little bit off. That crazy energy that I used to ride for entertainment felt very confused and selfish. I didn’t miss that environment.
But what about my social needs or desires? I love spending quality time with people in a genuine way yet these situations seem few and far between. I’ve become pretty content entertaining myself and focusing on my personal growth, but it seems like there’s something more out there. I feel some momentum building but I’m not exactly sure what direction it’s heading. The important thing is to stay equanimous through the changes, but I also don’t want to avoid a higher energy state. I’m excited to see what the next year bring. Time to meditate.